love always, ian

Distance can determine so many things
From new love to wedding rings
From stay or say goodbyes
I've heard the stories of failure and glories
The warnings of ones who will never ever try again

But honey we'll make it
Yes we will
Although we're miles apart
I'll love you still

As long as you wait for me
Please save a space for me
Inside your arms, I know it's been long
But darling stay strong for me
Just as the edelweiss grows
So will our love also grow
I promise you that we'll make it through
As long as you wait for me

ian

We're coming home we're coming home we're coming home!!!!!!!!!!

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*goes wild with joy*

I'm going home i'm going home i'm going home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ian is in the plane on the way home now. Probably reaching in 3 hours or so.

And I'm leaving tomorrow!!!!!

I'm so happy it's insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

=D

=O

Oh you know I just had a dream that it was already Sunday and that I woke up late and thus missed my train to Manchester and thus also missing the bus to Manchester Airport....Screwed man. So crap la. Luckily I woke up in time to discover it wasn't true... Hehe. I still have 20 hours to waste before going to Manchester.

Oh and I shall tell you my other dream yesterday! I wasn't sure whether I got stabbed or I've burnt myself where my heart is but I knew that there was a huge wound there. Before knowing this I was walking around town like normal and I was oblivious that I had a wound. Somehow or rather in my dream I happened to just wake up from a coma and went shopping so I didn't know nuts about the wound that I had. Only when I reached home and wanted to shower that I noticed that I had a sharp pain on the left side of my chest and vaguely saw parts of the wound that was not covered. Anyways, the funny thing was that the wound was covered in a huge maxi period pad.

With wings.

It seemed logical in my dreams k??!! Since pads can soak up lots of blood so I thought that using a period pad was the most *ahem* ingenious idea ever! Until I woke up and told it to Ian that it felt so stupid....Heh. But really, I think if I have a tremendous wound I'll prob use a period pad from now on...

Anyhooo.....

See you all back in Malaysia people!!!!!!!!!

Love Jac-who-is-going-to-go-home-soon!!!

Random Little Things That I've Been Up To

Helloness!!

I shall be back in 4 days now people!!!

Ooooo wheeee the excitement!

=D

But in the meantime, packing sucks maximum!

I've just sent my boxes to the temporary storage and I had 14 boxes and bags! Which...I carried all the way down 7 flights of stairs. I survived miraculously.

=D

I feel so very the strong..

On Sunday, I'll have to lug my heavy luggage all on my own too...

Kesiaaaannnn....Kan? Kan???

*pats my own back*

Ahh, all shall be worth it when I reach home!!!

Haha! Actually I'm feeling a bit shy and nervous seeing Ian again after centuries. How like dat? How?! I don't think I would know what to say...I'll probably just laugh. Hahaha!!!

We shall see...And I shall tell you about it!

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Sooo...Besides packing, I have been entertaining (and torturing) myself by watching Korean Dramas...

First Drama, because of my deep affection for Won Bin...:

*sighs*

Isn't he the most gorgeous delicious thing ever???

*hoo hoo* My heart...It goes pit-a-pat...

And not only is he gorgeous, he's got the kindest, sweetest soul! He's the Korean Ambassador for UNICEF..
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Maximum aaawwwww right?!

And no....You cannot marry him. He's marrying me. I've already proposed and he said yes. *sticks my tongue out at you and runs away*

Hee hee...I still love you Ian...Don't worry!!!

Oh, and where was I...Ahhh...yess...Korean dramas...I re-watched Autumn In My Heart...
Oh my...From the first episode to the last...I couldn't stop crying. Everyday I watched about 2 - 3 episodes...And I'd shed tears AT LEAST 5 times a day...

It's the loveliest most depressing story in the world!!! First it makes you laugh, then 2 minutes later it makes you cry and then it makes you angry and then you are so angry that you cry again. Stop playing with my feelings damnit!!!...*sniffles*

Ahh...then there is this really funny one which I am in the middle of watching now - Full House

Hahahah! If you haven't already seen this, watch it! It's the best! And it makes me hungry ALL THE TIME...It always shows them eating. And I even ordered a Chinese takeaway today just so I could also eat rice and pick my food with chopsticks just like they do!!!

Hee...

I love dramas!!!

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Ahh...and I made a cherry top all by myself!!!

Heh...What do you think???

And my estrogens are working after all!!! I can finally sew straight like a woman!!!

It was actually much harder than what i imagined. It's cuz of the boobies part too. Did you realise that your non-stretchy clothings have sewing lines somewhere around your melons? I figured it was to shape the shirt to fit them!

I scratched myself a lot too with the pins. Haha! It's cuz I had to put the shirt on and pin some needles on them to make it fit properly and then take the shirt out and my face kept getting scratched.

Ah but I was sooo happy I succeeded making something! I've tried the machine a few times before but all of them turned out disastrous...I was getting worried that my machine was going to be hiding under my bed forever and £35 pounds would have been gone...Just like that...Poof!!! Abacadabra!!!

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Oh oh, and I have fulfilled my fantasy of reading a book on the grass under the sun with the bunnies..


It felt so pleasant! The heat of the sun touching my skin was made just right with the cool breeze passing by. There was a poodle and a chihuahua running about nearby and little bunnies hopping around. I rested my feet on the daisy and daffodil-filled grass. Oh! And just like the cartoon movies, I caught one insect flying about and when it saw me, it stopped dead (in the air) and looked at me for 2 seconds before flying away...It was sooooo hillarious I tell you!!!

Everything was perfect!

Except for this one big-ass fly which kept landing on my feet. Smelly kot?!

We Hold On To You!

Jesus, in spite of all the confusion and chaos, the mess and hardships, I pray for my dad. It is hard for him to undergo such a period of time in his life. Knowing where to draw the line. Knowing who is right or wrong. Give him wisdom, give him strength. Uplift his spirit as he continues to serve You and only You..God. May you be close to Him. Speak to Him as You are doing so in my life. In Your Name I pray.. AMEN!

Where The Love Lasts Forever...

Hillsong's Album - With Hearts As One has been playing on my tunes recently and God has been speaking to me like a close friend. A close buddy every single minute of my day. My going in and going out. From the minute I step out my door into the chilly cold to Woolies, the local supermarket or to uni. He is always there. Never fails to be there for me. His grace is sufficient for me and I couldn't ask for more yet he added an extra bonus! He decided to hang out with me! How awesome is that? I really felt a close tug in my heart everywhere I go..Never alone..

A Glorious friend...

Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I’ll stand.

In love never to end

To call You more than Lord,
Glorious friend.

So I throw my life upon all You are,
‘Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance with You,
Where the love lasts forever.

Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I’ll stand.

And forever I will sing,

Lord forever I will sing,

Of how You gave Your life away,
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.

With You, where the love lasts forever.